Eat a lot of junk, lay in bed like there’s no tomorrow and be stressed out a lot. You’ll feel that chest pain in a few weeks and you’ll feel that bubbling fat building up inside your body.
I went to the doctor this morning and I’m not sure whether I’m getting old or my medications (for my lady parts) are just not working. I’ve been through a lot (medically) last year and my doctor tried a lot of ways to “fix” me and just when I thought I’m getting better here I was, sick, and it’s only the 7th day of the year. This is not going to be another melodramatic, long-winded description of how sad and lonely my life is (that’s maybe what you’re thinking if you’ve been reading my posts at all but really, I only “tumbl” when I’m sad). On the contrary, I’m quite happy with how my life is going right now. I’ve accepted that I really cannot change a lot of things in my life and I really cannot control other people’s decision and I really cannot have goals that depend on other people. 2012 is one of the best years of my life and I truly believe 2013 is going to be better (and I claim it!).
Anyhoo, as I was saying, when I went to the doctor this morning, they have all their theories as to what’s wrong with me but they really cannot tell why I’m having trouble breathing (yeah, “they”, I went to see two doctors today!) and it got me thinking, just how short life can be and I’m not talking about dying in a snap but it really hit me, I may actually die soon! With all the shit I’m NOT doing with my body (exercise, eating veggies, etc.), if I want to actually live longer and have a family someday
soon I may need to find healthier set of friends (to jog with) or healthier working environment, I dunno, just something healthier or else I just might die, as in literally.
Owell, whether or not, I die this year or the next is all up to God but seriously, consultations with doctors sometimes really put things in perspective.
Maybe, I’m just addicted to this certain kind of sadness.
Yes, I can actually be a terrifying stalker when I want to. So, be very careful and stay far away from him as possible or I might piece two and two together in the most perverted way and someone ends up not knowing where she is.
Yes, it’s too early to tell and I may just be completely paranoid but one more inappropriate night with him, I swear to the heavens I might not actually know what to do!
At this vulnerable point in our lives, it’s not wise to tempt fate and test the waters. I don’t know you and you may not actually know me but you’re honestly messing with my head and it’s very unsettling and I’m not very happy with it so, stop.
Take a second and think about the one thing that promotes attraction the most. I’ll give you a hint. The answer is not physical looks, wealth, having things in common, or even the person’s personality. I know, it’s crazy right? The answer is actually proximity. Study after study finds that most people tend to become attracted to people who are physically close to them. The theory is called the mere exposure effect, and it states that we tend to become attracted to a novel stimuli if it was repeated over and over again. I am sure you once saw a very attractive person who caught your attention while passing by your car, then you never saw him/her again. Why do most people forget about that very attractive person a few days later? Simply because they never see that person again. If the stimuli wasn’t reinforced we tend to forget about it even if we liked it. It really is true. Just talking to someone a lot can do so much. You may not even see it coming. But If you spend a considerable amount of time with someone, you could be friends one day, and before you know it, you’ve completely fallen head over heals in love with each other. Maybe this has happened to you. You can’t fight it, but why would you want to? It’s a beautiful thing, really.
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